Oftentimes – especially lately – I’ve found myself spread too thin. And it’s not only because of my to-do lists, demands from my family, and my academic workload, but it’s also because of sheer brain overload caused by the negative voices in my own head.
We don’t have to be schizophrenic to know that we deal with a barrage of negative voices and thought that sometimes spread us too thin. Things we literally make up, conclusions we jump to, and the “showdowns” we have to set the record straight! For me, it’s also been the articulate positioning, perfect timing, and well-thought-out rebuttal that I prepared in my mind for the person who wronged me. And let’s not forget the venting that happens over and over and over again, sometimes only in my own head.
I’ve found that spending time dwelling on hurts, mishaps, and wrongs is a waste of time! I thought about how many hours a week I may have squandered thinking about how I’ve been wronged and how I should defend myself. What if I had taken that same amount of time to do something useful like read my Bible, read a book, call someone to share a good laugh together, listen to music, or – best of all – PRAY?! Imagine the positivity I could have generated to stop my negative thoughts…..
When I fixate on hurtful things that people have done/said (or hasn’t done/said), my spirit becomes drained. My loveliness, enthusiasm, and spunk are nowhere to be found. Even more, I realized that this lack of positive energy only hurts those who haven’t wronged me at all. How unfair is that?
The beginning of strife is as when one letteth out water: therefore leave off contention, before it be meddled with.
All the while, when I get fixated on positive observations instead of those negative thoughts, I feel joyful; I’m at peace; I can only imagine that I’m a lot more fun and engaging to be around. So, to purposefully transform my thoughts, I have to first recognize that I’m in a negative state of mind; I have to acknowledge the fact and own in. And then I can take a few minutes to count just a few of my blessings to move out of my pity party. After all, God has been beyond good to me; I don’t deserve His goodness. And no, it’s not always easy. And it typically requires me to be conscious of my thoughts and diligent in my actions, but the effort is worth it!
*Inspired by “The One Year Book of Inspiration for Girlfriends” by Ellen Miller.